Epiphany Tiffany

My storm is destructive, Yours fatal. I still fell in love, After how fragile I was, I was still able. You knew my past flaws and my biggest hurts. But promised me with those kind and calming words. That you wouldn’t be the same. But my heart feels the embers of what’s left of your Colorado wild fire flames.  You told me you wouldn’t leave no matter how hard it got. So my heart picked you and you threw it straight into a boiling pot.  And here I am left with the mess to clean up because of your insecurities. Turns out they all did that to me. But I still believed the lies that you spoke. Hoping that someone could contest to the doubts that I have come to know. But it turns out that I'm still right, Even when I wish that I would’ve been wrong, Being right doesn’t help me sleep any better at night. Because I’d rather be proved wrong a million times. Than to lose another lover in my life.  But you gave up on me and our dreams, Wh...

When you get grief for being yourself. Wanting to be free sometimes without catering to someone else. Because you deserve the time you get spend by yourself. You work so damn hard not to pay attention to you. Because you should be able to do anything you want to do,  Without giving someone else the power to dictate what is best or not for you.  Because you know your heart and soul is amazing. And this person will always be the only one complaining. Not allowing you to do simple things without a fight. Trying to force the words I love you down your throat and expecting you to say it back every time. But you keep giving chances. Because you can’t seem to wrap your own damn head around all of this madness.  Because you only see what’s good, not what’s bad. This is the problem and now look where you stand.  But the issue at hand isn’t "who I am". Yet they will always tell me ...

Today marks one year. For me being sober? No, that’s a negative. For us being together,  yes that it would’ve been. Cause I still sit  have a glass of wine or two. But not because I'm crying  anymore tears over you. These feelings aren't stemming  because I live with regrets. They are only because today, we’d be together for a year  if you didn’t do what you did. But I know that Gods timing  is better than mine. That’s why I have been solid  for all of this time. But it’s also human of me  to possess feelings like these. Especially because my heart was in it,  full heartedly. Just because a year together  is something we couldn’t have, Doesn’t mean I’m not going to remember the hurt,  Or feel sad. But a year is just a year  when you really think about it. And so much transpired in my life  without you in it. Yeah there were others that duped me Like you did this year. Like the first dude ...

"Don't downgrade your dream just to match your reality. Upgrade your conviction to match your destiny." - John Assaraf Resist the irresistible. And differentiate the impersonators. Evade from deception.  And absorb in all motivation.  Always be the inspiration. And never let the fear of rejection stop you from asking the question. Allow actions to define true perceptions. And don’t worry about what you can’t control, it’s not within your obligation. Allow yourself to always follow your heart. But do it gracefully and by being smart.  And always believe in yourself, No matter what type of cards you are dealt. Don’t ever underestimate,  always overcompensate. Just be who you are. Keep smiling even when you feel torn apart. And by all means when you love, do it with your entire heart.  Be kind and have compassion. You never know who you can help when you care about people in that kind of fashion.  Strive for success....

I'm totally over it. But I wasn't today. Maybe something inside, made me feel this way. I thought I was happy,  maybe I'm not. How did I get here?  I thought I forgot. Thanks to my conscious, I can never forget. All that it takes, is something simple to make our memories, begin again. Maybe it's wanting to feel something real. Taking me back, to the way you  made me feel. Or maybe seeing you,  brought on these retakes. I don't know what it is about you thats making me feel this way.  Cause the flashes start to replay, inside of my head. I can't even think of one moment of sadness during the times that we spent. Bringing more tears, As I try to switch off my thoughts. I can't even turn them off, by taking a shot. But the gin helps the pain start to go away. Although the memories of you linger inside of my brain. Instead of fighting them off, I let them take me back. With tears in my eyes,  I still smile and laugh. Gosh I can g...

So i'm out with my single girlfriends, and we get into conversation about how all the good guys marry the mean girls. You know the girls that are defined as crazy, the bitches , the girls that these guys will always chase, because they don't give a fuck about anything let alone a good guy that likes them. But that only makes him want her more. Because according to the hot guy bartender that tried to counsel us single ladies into being that crazy mean girl so more men will like us. Apparently these "good guys" only want love if its torture, just like Taylor Swift says. Go-figure.  So are we completely screwed if we are good girls that don't like drama, confrontation, or being mean and crazy? We're just girls that actually love love, and enjoy happiness in life and even guy stuff. Unlike those prissy needy mean girls that make their man beg and chase them just to get a damn bone. And does that make us single girls easy just because we also love sex and want t...

Why do we feel the need to decode our feelings, relationships, friendships and dating, and label them as a lesson or a blessing? And these connections we try so hard to understand in full aspect.  Why do people always say in the end that if it’s not a blessing, then it’s a lesson? I just don’t get it. But I’ll try too.  I feel the need to bring this up, because I already mentioned how I truly believe that all things do happen for a reason, and usually, yeah things that happen could potentially be a blessing or a lesson, but what if its neither? And you still don't know exactly what it is? Could that be why you are unable to move forward, and is the only reason we are able to accept things and move on, because we actually learned something from them? So obviously, if we haven't moved on is it because it truly is a blessing? I can relate to that.   So how do you know exactly if it was a lesson? Just because you learned that you two aren't meant to be? Or that you lear...