The Anniversary We'll Never Get.

Today marks one year.

For me being sober?

No, that’s a negative.

For us being together, 

yes that it would’ve been.
Cause I still sit 

have a glass of wine or two.
But not because I'm crying 

anymore tears over you.

These feelings aren't stemming 

because I live with regrets.

They are only because today,

we’d be together for a year 

if you didn’t do what you did.

But I know that Gods timing 

is better than mine.

That’s why I have been solid 

for all of this time.

But it’s also human of me 

to possess feelings like these.

Especially because my heart was in it, 

full heartedly.

Just because a year together 

is something we couldn’t have,

Doesn’t mean

I’m not going to remember the hurt, 

Or feel sad.

But a year is just a year 

when you really think about it.

And so much transpired in my life 

without you in it.

Yeah there were others that duped me

Like you did this year.

Like the first dude after you 

I said yes to 

That asked me out for a beer.

And because of my sadness

of losing you.

I let myself to fall 

for those damn jerks too.

Like the attractive rebound 

who got paid to save lives,

To wasting my time with another 

hot air-force guy. 

I guess I just figured

it was okay for them to do.

Because my heart felt homeless

without you.

But I still don't react when you call me

at work.

Or when I see your brother 

at the gas pump standing in front of me.

Unfortunately,

I can't erase this sad remembrance 

because of your stupidity.

That leaves me facing the anniversary 

of what now could be.

But luckily for me, 

I don’t focus on all that.

Because I let you go,

the moment I sent you

all your stuff back.

After I moved on 

because you were cheating on me.

Don’t you remember telling me 

you were happy finally.

That only made me realize,

I no longer need to check on you.

So I stopped, 

you should too.

But we all slip up 

and make mistakes.

So feeling how I feel today 

is only a reminder 

as to why I am so brave.

Because allowing my heart

to feel what it feels.

Is always better than hiding 

what I truly believed was real. 

I’ve learned that an anniversary 

is just another way of looking back.

That in our case, 
I’d never let myself 

for one second retract.
I’ve grown so much 

from that instance.

That even though 

I might not ever forget,

I will never allow myself to hurt 

Over the anniversary we’ll never get. 

Written By: Epiphany Tiffany