A Tiny Million Beautiful Lies

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Emerald stare,

Completely unaware.

Lying to my face 

while you pretended to care.

 

Mouthing words,

that lacked expression. 

I already know,

I’m a fucking amazing person. 

 

Validating me,

As if I’m your only woman.

The only thing I needed

From you,

Was to feel fucking safe

Not reprimanded. 

 

You say, 

We don’t talk about your feelings.

“they aren’t important”

But love was not designed

To be a perfect portrait.  

 

I still saw beyond the idea of it.

Loved you,

Even when you couldn’t see it. 

Truth,

Was the only thing from you

I ever needed.

 

I really thought I knew you.

Until you fucking ghosted.

Just weeks after you said,

I, 

was your fucking favorite person. 

 

Then cancelled from your life

Like I never existed.

That kinda shit can fuck up,

An entire fucking nervous system.

 

When we were casually dating,

That was one thing.

But when you asked me to be 

“your girl”

I took that shit fucking seriously.


Turned our love into

an unbelievable reality.

After so much time,

I thought we made it finally.

Until lies you told,

Caught up to me.


But it is what it is.

I’ll never let you ruin me.

I should’ve known,

I was a starter playing second string.

 

Blaming myself,

For what you fucking did to me.

While you red tagged my ass

 “crazy” so easily.

Still calling me up,

just to check up on me.

Driving past my house,

To get a damn reaction out of me.

  

Starting your sentences with “maybes”

Because deep down you knew 

your feelings,

Weren’t as fucking deep. 


“I’m always going to be here for you”

Stupid text.

I can’t delete. 

But always expired,

When you said things you didn’t mean. 

 

I may still be healing.

But it’s worth it,

To remember,

Real shit you said to me.


Like,

“You deserve better”

You were right.

But it’s easier to get over 

A whole heartbreaking truth,

Than a tiny million, beautiful lies. 

 



Written By Epiphany Tiffany 

 

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