I wish I knew

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I wish I knew,

That every scar that I ached 

would eventually become a tattoo.

Or why I hate everything that 

I’m going through. 

How does one bad thing happen 

suddenly make me think about you

Like this is all your fault 

cause I would’ve never met him if I never left you.

 

I still wish I knew,

That parting the flame from the spark 

would ignite wild fires in different terrains. 

Or that tears would still fall from my green eyes 

to put out the flames.

Leaving the ashes of what was 

to be all that remains. 

 

God I wish I knew,

Why every time I was happy 

was when I was with you. 

Why can’t I 

seem to come to terms with the fucking truth?

Because all that I want is to be happy, 

so I can finally stop blaming you. 

 

I still wish I knew,

Why I can’t help myself 

when my mind falls down a rabbit hole and gets lost.

Those damn thinkers 

like to fuck around where they’re not supposed to get caught. 

But I should know better by now 

than to entertain those disastrous thoughts.

 

I wish my heart knew,

That I will someday love again.

But every time I think that I could.

I come up short, 

While you cash in on every win. 


I still wish I knew,

Why deep down it’s always been you. 

Why is it so hard to say 

fuck the past,

And just let it have you.



Written Truthfully by Epiphany Tiffany


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