Epiphany Tiffany

How did I get here. I’m not doing well. But he captivates my heart, As if it’s glued to the floor. I can't move. I can’t find the door. I can’t break through. How could I? When I carried my grief, Into somebody new. I wish I could run, To heaven to you. It’s fucked up. I’m stuck in the mud, That’s now buried you. I’m still trying to breathe, I’m still living for you. Til he pulls me close. And I forget for a few. Til he disappears, And I pretend I don’t feel it, But I fucking do. I know it hurts. I know it’s not right. That I still cry for you. In the dead of the night. But maybe this time, He will stay. Maybe this time, He will love me fully, Not halfheartedly. Cause if I found love again, I'd jump, The second he tells me when. I’ll swing open the door, Knowing all too well I’ve been here before. In that same beautiful chaos. In that same familiar flame. In a different night's sky, That still feels the same. Living a story, I thought I outgrew. A beautiful time, That still...

In love with your ghost. I feel you here. Everything I wanted to say Now, you can hear. No distance can keep, What the soul knows is true. Death took your body. But not what I knew. A love that still exists, Without you. So I sit here tonight And talk like you do. Remembering moments, We laughed and we cried, So much happened to us. In such little time. I can only hope To love another soul, One just like you. But it brings me to tears Because I just want you. So I speak to the silence, And whisper your name. Loving your spirit, Though nothing’s the same. But if souls ever wander, Where lost lovers go. I’ll still be here loving, The ghost that I know. And when the night grows still, I press my hand to my chest. Feeling the hollow and the warmth, On the part of you that never left. Written by Epiphany Tiffany

I don't wanna chase away dark clouds. Or let my smile fade beneath, borrowed frowns. I wanna settle inside, The darkest parts of your heart. Building an empire, Of laughter and art. Not a haven weak and thin.  But a love you can stand on,  a solid foundation.  Being the woman who lifts you high. Loving you softly, Through every  what the fuck that you sigh.  Through your deepest doubts. And shadowed fears. I want you so close, I want you right here. I don’t belong  in this realm, of fleeting hearts.  So I’ll wait, For you.  I’m done with jokers and clowns, I’m meant for something true.  Someone real, Someone like you.  Someone who sees my flaws, And my body like treasure, Not a pretty toy just to use. Even when I ask my heart  To tell me the truth, It still beats for you.  Life may have shattered our dreams, And turned sunny skies, black and blue.  But my heart still feels safe, Seeking shelter in you. I really hope yours ...

The last time we said goodbye, Wasn’t that long ago. You had to go battle demons. Leaving me no other choice. But to let go.  You hugged me, Held me tight, Till we both cried. So yes,  It’s hard for me to be here today. In a fancy black dress.  I came anyway. I wouldn’t miss this. Not for anything else. Even if it took, Every ounce of strength I had left On my metaphorical shelf. I watched you lose it all. I even lost myself. I lost you then, But it’s so much fucking harder  Losing you now. I kissed your forehead. You don’t look like yourself.  But I know that you’re here. Your presence was felt.  So, I’ll choose to forgive. And carry this love, Deep in my chest. The burdens I’ll bury At the grave, Where yer mama laid you to rest. The ache only hurts, Cause I’ll never hear your laugh In person again. I’ll never get the “I’m sorry” I still thought one day I might’ve.  Our love. I’ll never forget. Your timidness.  Mixed with that badass graceful wit...

Vanished. Like we never happened. As if once upon a time,  You were never, A  part of  my existence. How can I stay whole,  With such a haunting persistence.   Cause we were solid, Till you ghosted, For my birthday present. Such a brutal gift, I forgot to thank you for it.  Then rose from the dead, As if that shit never happened. Then went silent again. Right after that wound, Barely reopened. Still. Between the hurt,  and laughtergasms,  I fell into your witty sarcasm.  I lingered on the edge,  Of your rocky  yet stable mountain. I cared so deep.   Unwaveringly, devoted. That storm inside me softened. Till you reflected, Chards of darkness. And shattered my soul  Once I realized, You were made to vanish. I still fed you  countless chances. Your heart remained, Fucking barricaded. Locked away.  As if I was breaking and entering,  Just trying to get to it.  And that wandering soul, Afraid of commitm...