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Hopeless on Hope

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I thought it’d be you. Because you’d smile at me, As if you fucking knew. My heart spoke The rhythm of you. I saw not just a man, I saw straight through.  I saw kindness underneath, The armor you wore To hide the truth.    But I knew every layer of you.  Images now haunt me, The kind I can’t fucking undo. The nights I lay on your shoulder, Believing I was safer with you. The weekend we got Rum drunk by the pool. You put my hair up, When I puked. Carried me to the couch, And stayed until I woke up. Kinda cute.  Thinking about us, Really fucks me up. But I became fluent in Your asshole dialect. Staying calm, Whenever your moods would shift. I’d say what do you need babe. And even pick that shit up. You hate the way I drive. But I was always behind the wheel.  I came when you called, In the middle of the night, Just to get you.  I’d never get gone.  Not like you do. I stayed loyal and faithful. When you gave me,  No fucking reason to. Now I’m...
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Somebody

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Lying in your arms Feels right where I should be. Finally somebody  with no sudden bursts To planet extremity. Not too hot or too cold. Just a perfect balance, Of simple and sweet. When you were up north. Steadily talking to me. I knew I wanted more, When I added your name  To my morning prayer routine.  Now that your back, You have my heart racing. Fueling my mind, Just like caffeine. Fitting just right. Like my favorite, Levi Jeans. Got me, Singing and smiling.  Fueling my body, Like somebody, Ate all their collard greens. I've never felt so at ease.  While seeing things in a Lavender haze. Somebody got me giddy. By all means. Even my mind, Couldn’t have pictured it differently. Gosh,  I appreciate your consistency. It’s refreshing to think, Such beautiful things.  And paint words on my heart,  in calligraphy.  Months keep passing, And you keep sayin good morning. I’m never good with goodbyes, But god damn, You make me wanna try really....
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Fairytale in Hell

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How did I get here. I’m not doing well. But he captivates my heart, As if it’s glued to the floor. I can't move. I can’t find the door. I can’t break through. How could I? When I carried my grief, Into somebody new. I wish I could run, To heaven to you. It’s fucked up. I’m stuck in the mud, That’s now buried you. I’m still trying to breathe, I’m still living for you. Til he pulls me close. And I forget for a few. Til he disappears, And I pretend I don’t feel it, But I fucking do. I know it hurts. I know it’s not right. That I still cry for you. In the dead of the night. But maybe this time, He will stay. Maybe this time, He will love me fully, Not halfheartedly. Cause if I found love again, I'd jump, The second he tells me when. I’ll swing open the door, Knowing all too well I’ve been here before. In that same beautiful chaos. In that same familiar flame. In a different night's sky, That still feels the same. Living a story, I thought I outgrew. A beautiful time, That still...
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In Love With Your Ghost

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In love with your ghost. I feel you here. Everything I wanted to say Now, you can hear. No distance can keep, What the soul knows is true. Death took your body. But not what I knew. A love that still exists, Without you. So I sit here tonight And talk like you do. Remembering moments, We laughed and we cried, So much happened to us. In such little time. I can only hope To love another soul, One just like you. But it brings me to tears Because I just want you. So I speak to the silence, And whisper your name. Loving your spirit, Though nothing’s the same. But if souls ever wander, Where lost lovers go. I’ll still be here loving, The ghost that I know. And when the night grows still, I press my hand to my chest. Feeling the hollow and the warmth, On the part of you that never left. Written by Epiphany Tiffany
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