Epiphany Tiffany

Lying in your arms Feels right where I should be. Finally somebody  with no sudden bursts To planet extremity. Not too hot or too cold. Just a perfect balance, Of simple and sweet. When you were up north. Steadily talking to me. I knew I wanted more, When I added your name  To my morning prayer routine.  Now that your back, You have my heart racing. Fueling my mind, Just like caffeine. Fitting just right. Like my favorite, Levi Jeans. Got me, Singing and smiling.  Fueling my body, Like somebody, Ate all their collard greens. I've never felt so at ease.  While seeing things in a Lavender haze. Somebody got me giddy. By all means. Even my mind, Couldn’t have pictured it differently. Gosh,  I appreciate your consistency. It’s refreshing to think, Such beautiful things.  And paint words on my heart,  in calligraphy.  Months keep passing, And you keep sayin good morning. I’m never good with goodbyes, But god damn, You make me wanna try really....

How did I get here. I’m not doing well. But he captivates my heart, As if it’s glued to the floor. I can't move. I can’t find the door. I can’t break through. How could I? When I carried my grief, Into somebody new. I wish I could run, To heaven to you. It’s fucked up. I’m stuck in the mud, That’s now buried you. I’m still trying to breathe, I’m still living for you. Til he pulls me close. And I forget for a few. Til he disappears, And I pretend I don’t feel it, But I fucking do. I know it hurts. I know it’s not right. That I still cry for you. In the dead of the night. But maybe this time, He will stay. Maybe this time, He will love me fully, Not halfheartedly. Cause if I found love again, I'd jump, The second he tells me when. I’ll swing open the door, Knowing all too well I’ve been here before. In that same beautiful chaos. In that same familiar flame. In a different night's sky, That still feels the same. Living a story, I thought I outgrew. A beautiful time, That still...