Haunting Beloved-Poem.
Sometimes,
I find myself talking to your ghost.
Maybe because,
I never let your spirit go.
Or maybe your phantom,
speaks to my thoughts.
I’ll reply as if I were talking to you,
when evidently, I’m not.
But maybe your thoughts on me,
Speak to you,
Loud enough,
For my mind to hear them too.
I hope you know.
I’m trying my best to bury you.
But I can’t fast forward my heart,
to when it forgets about you.
Although I have accepted what is.
So, I wish the lingering smoke of what ifs,
would vacate my premises.
But it sticks to my kind heart.
Just like the smell of smoke lingers,
inside of a smoker's car.
My only salvation is,
how I have made it thus far.
Because every now and then,
I pass the graveyard on my way home.
With hopes to see you once more
Before I let this feeling go.
Maybe I wouldn’t wonder about you,
if life would let me move on.
Or if the white noise on the radio,
would stop playing sad country love songs.
Making me pray more now,
then you’ll ever know.
Talking to God,
Asking to unlearn everything about you,
he taught me to know.
To be that innocent girl I was,
Before I met you.
How one look in a different direction,
could change everything that happened,
between me and you.
But sadly,
the past has already been lived out.
We can't change what was now.
But I do know,
What is true will never feel like this.
Love shouldn’t hurt,
while both of us still exist.
Like the sparrow sits all night,
watching its nest,
While the little birds still fly away from it.
Although it may hurt like hell,
It's tragic how love can become
history we someday forget.
But maybe our souls,
hold onto it.
Soaring somewhere out there,
in the abyss.
Maybe it’s not your void,
that elicits this silence.
It’s the lingering depth,
The Grand Canyon of emptiness,
cascaded onto my Virgin Islands.
Building a lost city,
inside of my heart.
The stars shine bright there,
reminding me who you are.
Handsome and untrustingly genuine.
A perfect example of flawless sin.
So,
I’ll make the time to gaze up at those stars.
Because it reminds me that you,
really aren’t that afar.
That this galaxy is only,
the current lifetime that sets us apart.
Written by: Epiphany Tiffany.