Haunting Beloved-Poem.
Sometimes I find myself talking to your ghost.
Maybe because I never let your spirit go.
Or maybe your phantom speaks to my thoughts.
I’ll reply if I were talking to you when evidently I’m not.
Or maybe your thoughts of me speak to you,
Loudly enough my mind can hear them too.
I hope you know I’m trying my best to bury you.
But I can’t fast forward my heart to when it forgets about you.
Although I have accepted what is.
So I wish the lingering smoke of what ifs would vacate my premises.
But it sticks to my kind heart like the smell of smoke lingers inside of a smokers car.
My only salvation is how I have made it thus far.
Because every now and then I pass the graveyard on my way home,
With hopes to see you once more before I let these feelings go.
Maybe I wouldn’t wonder about you if life would just let me move on.
Or if the white noise would stop playing all of those sad country love songs.
Making me pray more now than you’ll ever know.
Talking to God,
To ask to unlearn everything about you he taught me to know.
To be that innocent girl I was when I first met you.
Or how one look in a different direction could have changed everything that happened between me and you.
But unfortunately the past has already been lived out.
We can't change what was now.
But I do know now,
What is true will never feel like this.
Love shouldn’t hurt while both of us still exist.
Like how the sparrow sits all night watching its nest,
She still finds a way to fly away from it.
Although it may hurt like hell,
It's tragic how love can become ancient history we someday forget.
But maybe our souls hold onto it.
Soaring somewhere out there into the abyss.
Because it’s not your void that elicits this silence.
It’s the lingering depth from the Grand Canyon of emptiness that cascaded onto my Virgin Islands.
Building a lost city inside of my heart,
But the stars still shine there just to remind me who you are.
Handsome and untrustingly genuine.
A perfect example of a flawless sin.
So I’ll make the time to gaze up to the brightest star,
Because it reminds me that you really aren’t that afar.
That this galaxy is only the current lifetime that sets us apart.
Written by: Tiffany Bales