Goodbye, Forever
Wasn’t that long ago.
You had to go battle demons.
Leaving me no other choice.
But to let go.
You hugged me,
Held me tight,
Till we both cried.
So yes,
It’s hard for me to be here today.
In a fancy black dress.
I came anyway.
I wouldn’t miss this.
Not for anything else.
Even if it took,
Every ounce of strength I had left
On my metaphorical shelf.
I watched you lose it all.
I even lost myself.
I lost you then,
But it’s so much fucking harder
Losing you now.
I kissed your forehead.
You don’t look like yourself.
But I know that you’re here.
Your presence was felt.
So, I’ll choose to forgive.
And carry this love,
Deep in my chest.
The burdens I’ll bury
At the grave,
Where yer mama laid you to rest.
The ache only hurts,
Cause I’ll never hear your laugh
In person again.
I’ll never get the “I’m sorry”
I still thought one day I might’ve.
Our love.
I’ll never forget.
Your timidness.
Mixed with that badass graceful wit.
A good looker you were,
But that’s not what stayed.
What remains,
Is a love I’ll carry in me.
Because you existed.
I hate that,
This is how it all ended.
No last talk.
No fucking fixing it.
Just silence.
Where your voice should be.
Still, I’ll learn to live with
Unanswered things.
What I’d give,
To see you smile back at me.
But I’ve got plenty of memories.
Letting you go for the last time.
Feels like fire in my chest tonight.
Though you’re gone forever,
This river of love,
Still drags all my sorrows under.
Goodbye forever.
I got to fucking love you.
I still did.
I still do.
A piece of you will live in me.
Goodbye forever, babe.
You’re finally free.
Written by Epiphany Tiffany.