December Blue

Lights glisten white and blue
just like Frozen.

Let it go plays in the background.

but it’s not sinking in.

Cause those turquoise eyes,
Still haunt my mind.
Making this ice-cold heart sink,
When I thought it was fine.

Sadly, 
December always remembers
Sad tragic times.
Masking my heart 

with gleaming beautiful,

sapphire lies.

Like the color of your shirt,
When you hugged me goodbye.
Or the chill of that aqua gaze, 
That cut my soul like a knife. 

Sometimes rain,
still pours out of my eyes.
Like the time 

I was drowning myself,
in my very own cries.

But that’s what made 
the morning glory’s bloom.

I finally stopped crying 
inside of my room.
You moved on,
So I did too.
Until I see anything,
That reminds me of you. 

Taking me back to

spring flowers in May.
That died way too fucking soon.  
Marvelous nights,
And a real fucking star for you.

Of all of the galaxies,
you were my fullest moon.
How do I forget,
A person who fully consumed.
That kind of shit,
Takes lifetimes to pass through.

God damn.
You probably still look
So damn good in blue.
While I’m supposed to be fucking,
forgetting about you.
Not grieving a future,
That didn’t come true.

But I remember every
navy ink staining moment,
Happy with pride.
Why can’t I remember 
Reality as it was,
With you, 
Black or white.

Why can’t your jet streams,
Just stop cross passing by.
Take a fucking other route.
Like I have all of this time.

Still, nile fire flames 
Endlessly ignite.
Maybe it isn’t so terrible 
If you only glisten,
in and out of my mind.

Even if it makes me feel 
Every shade of blue. 
It will still probably 
take forever,
Just to get over you.

And your lingering ghost like the ocean.
Beautiful, dangerous and true.
Enduringly bitter enough 

to make me feel,
December Blue. 

Written by: Epiphany Tiffany