Still Standing

It hurt me.
It killed me.
It broke me.
But it didn’t destroy me.

Although it felt like it did.
So maybe a part of me 

died when we did.
Because fuck, 

I loved you since I was a kid.
That shit doesn’t just wash away 

like your feelings for me did.

Even if things turned out 

different than I anticipated. 
I still learned 

all kinds of hard life lessons. 
Repeating the same mistakes.
Until I finally stopped giving 

my love away like it’s spare change. 

So fuck, 

of course I am going to have bad days.
Going back to the past 

in my mind fucks with my heart 

in the worst possible ways.
But trust me,
Now I believe everything 

that you didn’t say. 
Because you proved that shit 

when you ran away.

But just because 

I thought you were true,
Doesn’t make my heart believe 

I was wrong about you.
I never once lied to you.
I might’ve spoke out of anger,
By being so broken 

for giving my entire heart and soul 

to a best friend who became a stranger. 

It might have been 

the purest of love I ever felt.
Maybe that’s why 

I’m still stuck in this hell,
Because no one has gotten anywhere close 

to bailing me out. 

I’m still out here applying myself.
Becoming who I want in a person 

before I let anyone ever again ask me out.
Taking the time to heal from all of the damage 

that I buried deep into the ground.

God,

I’m pretty damn proud of myself.
I might’ve been stranded 

in a damn circus with jokers and clowns.
But back then I wouldn’t of been able 

to find my way out.

I may have hard moments 

but am truly happy when I come back down. 
I wished the world for you 

and can see that’s something you’ve found. 
Ain’t it crazy 

how the world still spins around.

But I know someday 

it’ll shine back on me.
Just like the monarch butterflies 

and stars keep reminding me.
That there’s real beauty 

in peace and simplicity.
Telling me that right here and now 

is exactly where I need to be. 
Still standing 

after you happened to me. 



Written truthfully by Epiphany Tiffany.