You

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“A dream is a wish that your heart makes” -Lily James


The only dream I ever had was you.

So when do I begin 

to consider anything new,

If all of my wishes 

for a split second came true,

But burnt out 

right as time led me to you

 

I never had any intentions 

behind my every move.

The only thing 

I ever wanted and lost was you.

Thankful now 

that time didn’t stop in its shoes.

I learned so many things 

not running after you.

 

Like forbidding vicious souls 

that try to tell my heart what to do.

I no longer believe in beautiful lies 

that aren’t followed through.

I’ve grown so many ways 

you probably wouldn’t recognize me now 

even if I was staring at you.

I smile a lot more 

and choose to do what’s right 

even if it beats my heart black and blue.

 

But sometimes vulnerable thoughts 

lead my mind to drift towards thoughts about you.

Weakening my immunity,

Until I’m plagued with a virus 

that heavily consumes.

As it attacks the biggest ache inside of my being 

with no lack of faith that it’s you.

 

Still, I’m brave enough 

to conquer my biggest fury.

As much as I wanted you to be there,

I would have never tried to convince you 

to stay for me.

I’m adult enough to accept 

whatever life brings.

Even our heaviest misfortunes 

can find ways to heal broken heartstrings.

 

Cause believing in you 

cleared a path to believing in me.

And letting you go 

only set my heart and soul free.

Making me realize 

that it was never about you.

It was about my journey 

of seeking a cleansing type of break-through.

That I would’ve never accomplished 

if it wasn’t for the pit stop on this journey 

that I made just for you.



Written truthfully & beautifully by Tiffany Bales

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