Different Levels of Life- Poem.

My storm is destructive,

Yours fatal.

I still fell in love,

After how fragile I was,

I was still able.

You knew my past flaws and my biggest hurts.

But promised me with those kind and calming words.

That you wouldn’t be the same.

But my heart feels the embers of what’s left of your Colorado wild fire flames. 

You told me you wouldn’t leave no matter how hard it got.

So my heart picked you and you threw it straight into a boiling pot. 

And here I am left with the mess to clean up because of your insecurities.

Turns out they all did that to me.

But I still believed the lies that you spoke.

Hoping that someone could contest to the doubts that I have come to know.

But it turns out that I'm still right,

Even when I wish that I would’ve been wrong,

Being right doesn’t help me sleep any better at night.

Because I’d rather be proved wrong a million times.

Than to lose another lover in my life. 

But you gave up on me and our dreams,

When you wanted to dictate my very own life for me.

And pulling me so tight only pushed me away.

No matter how much love is there it’s never healthy to live that kind of way.

But I held on because I loved you. 

Your flaws and even your demons too.

Because I knew inside of me you had it inside of you,

To be the one that I could run too.

And you were amazing at that,

That is until something inside you made me step back.

And it had nothing to do with me.

Just your very own insecurities. 

So is losing me worth everything,

Just to feed that negative energy?

Is giving up on the plans we had,

Worth running away and never looking back?

I asked myself this every time I would run.

Then I would find myself running back to you,
Because no matter how cold I was,

You always warmed me up, kept me warm, safe and calm.

Making me feel like my heart was right where it belonged.

But maybe I mistook your kindness for lack of genuine.
Not realizing you would use your doings as ammo to attack me with.

And you left me after you said that you wouldn’t.

So anything you say or do now,

Is totally irrelevant. 

Because your actions did the leaving,

And your words also did hurt me. 

I wish you would have just hugged me instead.
Because a simple hug could have saved our relationships life.

But turns out you weren't that wise.

Because you let your insecurities take over and win the fight.
But maybe it's just because we are on totally different levels of life. 

Written by: Tiffany Bales