Stranded Emotionally

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You will find peace not by trying to escape your problems, but by confronting them courageously. You will find peace not in denial, but in victory. -Unknown

I’m cursing fucks.
You’re giving up.
Darling,
What could be better
Than true beautiful love.

You gave me no choice
But to move on from.
I didn’t want to.
For life.
I would’ve chose you.
But baby,
Look at what
you made me fucking do.

Look at the truth.
When shit got heavy
I couldn’t witness you.
Numbing yourself.
While I faced the realness.
I walked down the iciest halls
And met all of your demons.

I still loved you.
I still remembered,
You for you.
Not whom ever
this brokenness turned you into.
Not the man who
Called me names.
And told me horrible things
In a home we named
Our place.

That shit still aches.
Real tears,
rained down my face.
He broke my heart.
My love for you
Patiently awaited
in the ramparts.

Praying you’d wake up.
And see.
Not leave me
Stranded emotionally.
Not left,
Abandoning dreams.
Or holding the painting.
Of the castle we
Hung on up on our wall.
Beautiful yet tragic
Nearly reaching our goals.

I just believed in hope.
I believed love could fix
fathomless scars.
Cause you helped
mend my broken heart.
You once showed me
That I was safe in your arms.
You loved me so much.
You just can’t see it,
Where ever you are.

I missed you.
And waited patiently for you.
While you let the enemy win.
You let our love
Succumb into
fucked up temptation.

That love was sadly mistaken.
I'll never sit or wonder 
What could've been.
You might have been loaded,
But your mindless betrayal cleared the path
That I was stuck for ten fucking months
emotionally stranded in.



Written by Epiphany Tiffany

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