So Brutally True
Thinking about you,
I hate that I do.
The beauty was real,
Hell, the hell was too.
How do I forget a love
So brutally true,
So black and blue
So living out our dreams,
And the fucking hell it put me through.
You tore me open,
Just to see what’s inside.
Naming it love,
Til I slowly died.
Building forever,
On broken lies.
Claimed I,
Ruined your life,
When I was just trying
To fucking survive.
I guess I thought,
The pain was proof that it’s real.
But all I feel now,
Is a wound that won’t seal.
Every song, every street,
Every somebody new,
Still bleeds your name,
Still reminds me of you.
In the back of my mind,
In the beat of my chest,
You’re the curse I survived,
But never fully laid it to rest.
Still waking up.
Reaching for your skin.
Half-asleep,
Half-drunk on what’s been.
Your laugh echoes,
Through the cracks of my soul,
Whispering lies,
That once made me feel whole.
But even in the wreckage,
I still see you there,
A ghost in my laughter,
A haunted breath of fresh air.
You taught me flames.
Now I dance in the rain,
Now I rise softer,
From all of that pain.
Cause you were the fire,
That burned me awake,
The lesson I learned,
Too late to unmake.
Yeah, I loved you.
God, I still might.
But if anything
You made me realize.
Something so brutally true.
I’m done bleeding for others
Especially you.
Written by Epiphany Tiffany.