Heart Beating.

You were my sky.
I was the moon.
I never thought life
Would take me
from you.
I kept trying to keep you.
Hold on, get dragged.
Anything was better
than fucking losing you.

I’d run in circles,
Waiting for you.
You’d tell me we’re fine.
I didn’t feel alright.
Crying made me cry more.
The only thing that’d dry my tears
was to be in your arms.

What happened to smooth sailing
oceans of truths.
Those days your heart 

fought like hell for it too.

How do I let go?
If I’d constantly wonder,
What life would be like
if I stayed with you.
What if our dreams
could still somehow come true?
Hope does more harm
Than walking away could ever do.

I found myself not making plans.
Because you’d just show up,

Out of the blue.

I didn’t wanna miss you.
Til I’d get pissed 

and make plans to force myself to stay away from you.
When deep down.
I just wanted to be with you.
Fucked up things. 
I became a witness to.

But you taught me how to live
Without you.
Ignoring my calls.
Silencing yourself,
Like you’d force me into the arms
of somebody new.
How could you?
Turn into somebody
My heart isn’t into.

Repelling yourself,
As if I am the enemy.
You walked away,
but didn’t say a word to me.
Then reading your actions
Fucking confused the heck out of me.
Blaming me for your lack of empathy.

My heart screamed loudly.
What did I do to deserve these things baby?
Was it wrong of me
To expect true love
from an unhealthy being?

I’m sure he will always wear the gold chain necklace I got for him, 

just to remember me. 

But I already pawned the ring he bought me 

February fourteenth. 

Don’t go lose yourself
Over his incapabilities.

You now know the truth,

Every disgusting infidelity. 

It’s not your place to exploit.

His fatal fantasies. 

Your hearts been through enough. 

It’s time to move on,

The bruises will heal,

Someday you’ll no longer feel,

The ache from his blows.

That made you take,

One hell of a heart beating. 

Written by Epiphany Tiffany