Epiphany Tiffany

"Love and war are the same thing, and stratagems and policy are as allowable in the one as in the other." - Miguel De Cervantes Blue, your eyes so blue. Just like the way that I felt when you left the room. But my heart held back because I wanted it to be detached from you. Yet I felt your haze finding its way through my hearts heavily armed and guarded maze. I'm not sure that my army of soldiers were even enough to battle your vigorous strength. So I wasn't sure what to do. Because I couldn't admit to myself the way that I thought that I could feel about you. And my mind forgot to remind me to play it cool. When you laid right next to me inside of my room. So I lost control and let you consume. Because you made me want you so bad. That I couldn’t help but have you anyway that I realistically could have. And that energy ignited into a burning desire. And you made it all worth it, completely fueling my fire. And the feeling began to spark into a burni...

I can get rid of all the things, Pack them up and ship it all off, So I think the haunting memories will begin to stop. Turns out I cannot get rid of my heart, The residual damage still lingered there inside of the dark. Sometimes I feel the hurt sometimes I don’t, But just because it’s gone now doesn’t mean that I won’t. Just because something touched every piece of my existence, Doesn’t mean that it won’t leave me defeat-less. Even if I was defeated by your love itself, I'll still face the ghosts that like to remind me just how it felt. The happy, the sad, the highs and the lows, These ghosts take me right back to the moments that I let go. But I still see the night sky, the planets and our star, I still see you driving everywhere inside of your car. When I’m driving long drives, I remember all of ours, Babes, the happy cows, holy water and our dream cars. When you said, you wish you would’ve had kids with me, How I would’ve done anything f...

Ever feel like you are a ball of stress? Like you have so many things going on and you are bouncing around like a bouncing ball all over the damn place? Like you just can’t get a grasp of yourself.  Maybe its work, being a mom, or even a wife. Maybe you are just tired of living up to the image you portray. Or maybe you just are plain up TIRED. I can agree to that! It’s so hard to deal with everyday life battles. Trust.  My day consists of mini mountains. From waking up at five am, pulling my tired self out of my amazing pure white comfy bed, to get a microsecond to myself to brew a cup of coffee. I enjoy the calm still morning before the chaos begins. Oh, because it will. Once those tiny little humans I’m raising on my own have to be barked at for twenty minutes straight just to get a grunt out of them wake up. Then they cry walk themselves into the same damn bathroom I am trying to get ready in. They sit there pouting, dampening the coffee that’s starting to fuel through...

I wouldn’t completely rule out that there is no such thing as a perfect match for ones soul.  You know, the one, your person.  Of course, I believe in love. But I also believe that there can be multiple people that we have connections with. So Am I totally contradicting myself here? I mean don’t get me wrong, I want to believe that we all have a soulmate out there, one soul that’s just like our own. But out of seven billion people in this world, who am I to even think for one bit that there is only ONE PERFECT MATCH for everyone. I mean haven’t you played the memory card game. There are always multiple matches on the table. So why should we limit our hearts, bodies and souls to just one love because we truly believe that person is our perfect match. Besides how do we know for sure we even met our perfect match anyway? Come on girls, I know you read “Princess and the Frog” she had to kiss tons of frogs before she found her prince. Not anywhere in the book did it state that she...

"It’s not what they see in you, it’s what you see in yourself that determines your depths" -Tiffany Bales. The deep end is dark, bottomless and terrifying. You can drown, you can sink, and you can ultimately disappear into the darkness of it. Trust me I’ve been there, treading its water and gasping for air while submerging down into it.  But it was the security of being on the boat that carried me out to it, that relinquished the fear of being in it to begin with. As if the deep dark ocean was not even there, but somehow right underneath my feet. I was standing on what I thought was solid ground, only with thousands of feet below me. I guess I didn’t think that in any given moment the ship could actually sink. That I could find myself without ground. Sinking into the deep, all well cold and alone. But somehow the solid ground on the ship made me believe that I was safe, and wasn’t going to drown. But I was in the ocean, and the ocean controls the ship. I couldn’t rely ...

Football and Love I want to be on your team, Because I know together we can win championships. To offensively be there to help you score, Or run it in for you when you don't have the energy anymore. To guard you from those that will try to get a sack, And be there with open arms waiting for you to complete that perfect catch. Although roughing the passer is a common thing, Because dumb people will still try to hurt you even if you don't have anything. But I will protect you when you take that leap, So have faith and you’ll see what I see. Holding might interfere with our pace, So I'll always try to keep my hands in a safe place. And we might have a few false starts, But that doesn't mean we were meant to be apart.  So if the call on the field stands, I know not everything goes the exact way that we planned. A conversion might be exactly what we need, To become the best damn team in the entire league. So defensively, I'll ...