Ghosts of Your Love Poem.

I can get rid of all the things,

Pack them up and ship it all off,

So I think the haunting memories will begin to stop.

Turns out I cannot get rid of my heart,

The residual damage still lingered there inside of the dark.

Sometimes I feel the hurt sometimes I don’t,

But just because it’s gone now doesn’t mean that I won’t.

Just because something touched every piece of my existence,

Doesn’t mean that it won’t leave me defeat-less.

Even if I was defeated by your love itself,

I'll still face the ghosts that like to remind me just how it felt.

The happy, the sad, the highs and the lows,

These ghosts take me right back to the moments that I let go.

But I still see the night sky, the planets and our star,

I still see you driving everywhere inside of your car.

When I’m driving long drives, I remember all of ours,

Babes, the happy cows, holy water and our dream cars.

When you said, you wish you would’ve had kids with me,

How I would’ve done anything for that to actually be.

My talks with your mom, teaching her your favorite recipes,

I swear laughing with your family made me feel completely complete.

When we gave it a shot after so many years,

It was short lived but it still felt like a whole twenty years.

I didn't have the heart to delete our photos and texts,

But one day I will, when the scars heal completely inside of my chest.

Everything I did for you I would never repossess,

I was in love; I was never obsessed.

Our nights, our plans, our shows, our hands,

Those moments are just time that I know I will never get back,

So I will never let the ghosts of your love attack.

Our souls were made the same,

But you were scared and I was brave.

I guess I didn’t realize what was really true,

I was naive and purely gave my whole heart and self to you.

So when I finally found out bits and pieces of the gut wrenching truth,

I was so upset that I didn’t know what else to think of you.

I guess the sadness wanted me to miss you,

The anger wanted me to hate you,

And now the healing only reassures to me that I can live happily and just fine without you.

But that doesn’t mean that love I felt wasn’t real,

Time heals,

But what’s true will always exist,

Whether it’s there or not anymore doesn’t mean that it will not persist.

And at some point I've got to learn to just live with it.

To let go of the emotions I can no longer control,

And just wish happiness to the person that touched my soul.

I guess feelings are feelings no matter when, where or how far,

And the ghosts of your love try to haunt me when I'm finally out of its radar.

But they won’t trip me up,

Because there's a place and time where I can finally say that I've had enough.

And I have learned to accept that I have loved and lost,

But life and love are not about win or lose,

Or trying to place blame by finding somebody to accuse.

It's about always remembering what it taught me in the end,

How it made me feel,

So I can allow myself to someday love someone else that way again. 

And to always remember that love is real.

Written by: Tiffany Bales.