Soldiered Heart.
"Love and war are the same thing, and stratagems and policy are as allowable in the one as in the other."
- Miguel De Cervantes
Blue, your eyes so blue.
Just like the way that I felt when you left the room.
But my heart held back because I wanted it to be detached from you.
Yet I felt your haze finding its way through my hearts heavily armed and guarded maze.
I'm not sure that my army of soldiers were even enough to battle your vigorous strength.
So I wasn't sure what to do.
Because I couldn't admit to myself the way that I thought that I could feel about you.
And my mind forgot to remind me to play it cool.
When you laid right next to me inside of my room.
So I lost control and let you consume.
Because you made me want you so bad.
That I couldn’t help but have you anyway that I realistically could have.
And that energy ignited into a burning desire.
And you made it all worth it, completely fueling my fire.
And the feeling began to spark into a burning flame,
Which only made my detached heart feel tame.
And right then and there was more than enough,
When I looked at you and smiled all while trying my best not to keep you up.
You grabbed me, pulled me close and whispered with a sleepy voice, "baby this is perfect."
In that moment I felt safe and secure so when you left I knew I had to turn off the switch.
To disengage myself before my heart could have realized that it might have been hit.
Maybe I should have called for backup but it could have been a false alarm.
- Miguel De Cervantes
Blue, your eyes so blue.
Just like the way that I felt when you left the room.
But my heart held back because I wanted it to be detached from you.
Yet I felt your haze finding its way through my hearts heavily armed and guarded maze.
I'm not sure that my army of soldiers were even enough to battle your vigorous strength.
So I wasn't sure what to do.
Because I couldn't admit to myself the way that I thought that I could feel about you.
And my mind forgot to remind me to play it cool.
When you laid right next to me inside of my room.
So I lost control and let you consume.
Because you made me want you so bad.
That I couldn’t help but have you anyway that I realistically could have.
And that energy ignited into a burning desire.
And you made it all worth it, completely fueling my fire.
And the feeling began to spark into a burning flame,
Which only made my detached heart feel tame.
And right then and there was more than enough,
When I looked at you and smiled all while trying my best not to keep you up.
You grabbed me, pulled me close and whispered with a sleepy voice, "baby this is perfect."
In that moment I felt safe and secure so when you left I knew I had to turn off the switch.
To disengage myself before my heart could have realized that it might have been hit.
Maybe I should have called for backup but it could have been a false alarm.
Or maybe something between us detonated but I was able to quickly disarm.
So I searched myself to see if there were any deep wounds,
But it was all clear, all safe to presume.
Even when the alliance could not be defamed.
I knew it, cause we both felt it that night we first met at that ballgame.
Sure it could've just been the fireworks or even the bangs.
But something captivated us to go out on a date.
And it was perfect, as you took me to a place I've never been.
A secret place downtown for the win.
How sweet you were when you grabbed my hand.
It felt refreshing to spend time with a real man.
Yes, even though I cried all the way home after our first kiss.
Still sobbing tears over my ex that I missed.
So I guess when it came time for us to call it quits,
I didn't consider you to be someone that I would have actually missed.
But I totally did when we both pushed each other away.
I guess I realized something about you that made me wish I would've stayed.
So I had to be honest with you and myself,
Still keeping my heart out of the deal that we dealt.
So a deal was a deal, I promised that I wouldn’t make it tough,
Or ever let myself admit that I might have wanted more than what we both agreed was enough.
And I didn’t break it because I wasn’t so sure what I thought I wanted was even real,
I was just there for what was to come and to see what life had planned to reveal.
Because I liked the way you were so sure of yourself,
I to this day still laugh at what you did the first time you walked into my house.
And I smile because it was always so simple and fun,
Never overthought anything or hoped for you to be the one.
I just enjoyed the time that we did get,
And think of all of the funny things that have happened, that I don't think we'll both ever forget.
Like the embarrassing and the intimate,
Ripped out hair, broken chair, watching shark week lying on the floor,
Maybe I should stop now before I say anymore.
I hope you know I never took you to serious because I already knew what men like you were for.
Even when that darkness I saw inside you started to soften and thought I saw you for who you really were.
But it wasn’t enough because when it comes to women, you’re an entrepreneur.
So if lying to myself was the protection I needed just to protect us both.
I‘ll say I kept a secret from my heart that only allowed you not to get too close.
Keeping it simple that way any crisis could have been evaded.
And my heart, well, it had no idea what the hell happened to it.
And I hope you don’t mind that I may have totally forgotten the agreement that we had.
By being distracted when you looked at me like that.
But giving you the power to control and command,
Helped me for once not dictate any future plans.
So when you called me beautiful, baby and told me goodnight.
It didn’t sink in too deeply, well, not until you left without saying goodbye.
But the tall, handsome, brave, strong man that you perceived to be,
Was exactly what my soldiered heart misperceived.
But I didn’t want to ruin the smile you left me with by questioning it.
So it is what it is.
I'm not the girl that was even trying to get you to enlist.
You're a real man, I’m a real women.
Whatever happened, happened.
My soldiered heart was built to handle it.
Written By: Tiffany Bales.
So I searched myself to see if there were any deep wounds,
But it was all clear, all safe to presume.
Even when the alliance could not be defamed.
I knew it, cause we both felt it that night we first met at that ballgame.
Sure it could've just been the fireworks or even the bangs.
But something captivated us to go out on a date.
And it was perfect, as you took me to a place I've never been.
A secret place downtown for the win.
How sweet you were when you grabbed my hand.
It felt refreshing to spend time with a real man.
Yes, even though I cried all the way home after our first kiss.
Still sobbing tears over my ex that I missed.
So I guess when it came time for us to call it quits,
I didn't consider you to be someone that I would have actually missed.
But I totally did when we both pushed each other away.
I guess I realized something about you that made me wish I would've stayed.
So I had to be honest with you and myself,
Still keeping my heart out of the deal that we dealt.
So a deal was a deal, I promised that I wouldn’t make it tough,
Or ever let myself admit that I might have wanted more than what we both agreed was enough.
And I didn’t break it because I wasn’t so sure what I thought I wanted was even real,
I was just there for what was to come and to see what life had planned to reveal.
Because I liked the way you were so sure of yourself,
I to this day still laugh at what you did the first time you walked into my house.
And I smile because it was always so simple and fun,
Never overthought anything or hoped for you to be the one.
I just enjoyed the time that we did get,
And think of all of the funny things that have happened, that I don't think we'll both ever forget.
Like the embarrassing and the intimate,
Ripped out hair, broken chair, watching shark week lying on the floor,
Maybe I should stop now before I say anymore.
I hope you know I never took you to serious because I already knew what men like you were for.
Even when that darkness I saw inside you started to soften and thought I saw you for who you really were.
But it wasn’t enough because when it comes to women, you’re an entrepreneur.
So if lying to myself was the protection I needed just to protect us both.
I‘ll say I kept a secret from my heart that only allowed you not to get too close.
Keeping it simple that way any crisis could have been evaded.
And my heart, well, it had no idea what the hell happened to it.
And I hope you don’t mind that I may have totally forgotten the agreement that we had.
By being distracted when you looked at me like that.
But giving you the power to control and command,
Helped me for once not dictate any future plans.
So when you called me beautiful, baby and told me goodnight.
It didn’t sink in too deeply, well, not until you left without saying goodbye.
But the tall, handsome, brave, strong man that you perceived to be,
Was exactly what my soldiered heart misperceived.
But I didn’t want to ruin the smile you left me with by questioning it.
So it is what it is.
I'm not the girl that was even trying to get you to enlist.
You're a real man, I’m a real women.
Whatever happened, happened.
My soldiered heart was built to handle it.
Written By: Tiffany Bales.