After Everything

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Survived a hole in my heart,
The size of Texas.
I'm no longer,
Stuck inside, 
Those fucked up fences.
After everything,
I've been securing my defenses. 

When my heart spoke,
Perseverance.
Yours spoke in fucked up,
Deterrence.
Hell, I’ve been better since,
That brutal severance. 
When coming home,
Felt treacherous.
I never left forever,
So damn quick.
After everything, 
I’ve been forgetting all of it.

Like that place on,
What was lane.
It took way too long,
For me to realize,
What was really happening.
You can't mix sober,
With intoxicated.
My drug of choice 
Was happiness,
Yours was heroin.
Numbing yourself,
To feel no pain.
While I felt,
Every single thing. 

After everything,
I’ve been fixing broken wings.
I’ve been fitting into,
Smaller jeans. 
I’m no longer attracted to,
Faulty kings. 
I've been mending my wounds.
As callous as it all was,
I never needed you.
I only wanted what’s best for you.
And you ruined that for me too.

But I got released,
From all that torment.
After putting my heart 
In solid hands,
That went and crucified it.
After everything,
I’ve been a lot more gentle with it.
I’ve been looking up,

And seeing things clearly.

No longer wishing for things 

I can’t see.

Even if the sound of your oath

To me,

Whispers through my memory. 

I’ll keep building my legacy.

Losing you,

Was never really going to stop me.


After everything,
I'm smiling finally.
I’m no longer crying religiously.
I think it’s time,
To let go permanently.
Cause loving you,
Will always mean,
Sacrificing me.

And I’ve been living rightfully. 
I finally feel like Tiffany. 
After everything,
I have peace. 
I must’ve lied to myself,
When I believed,
You were that for me.
But I am finally free.
After everything.



Written by: Epiphany Tiffany

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