Where You Left Me

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"If things don’t happen the way they happened, some of the miracles that showed up wouldn’t have happened.” - Aaron Rogers


I want to hate you.
But I can’t find it in me.
It’s like my love for you,
Got frozen in place.
Resting still,
Where you left me.

I tried to date. 

I tried to move on.

But I kept looking for you,

In everyone.

I kept searching for 

The hand that holds my heart.

But I can’t reach for it anymore. 


I need to stop wearing

Your T-shirt to bed.

I need to just try

To let someone else in.

I need to free myself from the ache.

I need to let go and tell myself

I’m gonna be okay.


I need to envision you,

For who you are now.

I need to just stop,

Blaming myself.

It’s not my fault

I was never going

To heal your hell. 


So scar me instead.

For loving you purely.

For seeing your flaws,

And kissing you softly.

For being overwhelming,

When your love left the building.

You blamed me,

For fucking everything. 

Making my heart stay,

Where you left me. 


I’m tired of loving somebody,

Who no longer loves me.

Tired of caring,

Til’ I found something meaningless.

It made me feel,

Even more like shit.

I wanted to run to you,

But I couldn’t.


I may have a hard time,

Getting what’s left

Outta my system.

But I’m not a quitter 

I never give up.

If fate tells me

It’s time to move on,

I trust the process.


This frozen heart,

Will warm up again.

One day it will be 

Truly happy.

Without playing pretend.

For what it’s worth,

You did make it work again. 


I believe the divine will guide me 

Right where I’m meant to be.

Because my love is worth more, 

Than where you left me.




Written by Epiphany Tiffany


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