Ripped Forever Outta Me

You made me feel like a fool.
It’s only been six days.
My heart needs time 

to get over you.
And that betrayal,
Is brand fucking new.
Cut me some slack
on the name calling.
Any woman would be livid
facing this truth.

While you called me up, 

and tried to deny it.
Making me look like I'm crazy
For fucking reacting to it.
For being so angry.
It messed with my head.
It confused me.
It isn't my fault.

I couldn’t see further ahead.

Cause we went straight outta

I love you, to this.

The man that I know, 

Would never treat me like this. 

Who you've become,

Just doesn't fit.

But it makes sense now,

why you had to go and find less.

That devil inside you.

Was telling me lies.
You’ve lost your damn mind.
All I saw, 

were my lovers' 

disarming green eyes.

Satan's controlling.

Mastering your strings.
I didn't see a warning.
All I saw was the man 

Whom, I believed cherished me.

All I ever did wrong was
Fucking love you.
The life you’re living in now,
I cannot save or fix you.
You’re so deep in the darkness.
My light dimmed,
trying to rescue.

While real pain seeps outta me.
Tears fall from my eyes.
Filled with stabbing heartbreaking grief.
I really tried to go gracefully.
Til you ripped forever outta me.

Babe, we didn’t only have dreams.
We began building the blocks.
With long hours 

of blue printing walks.
For you to go and throw it away 

All for a drug.
You aren’t the brave soldier,

I sought. 

 
The sadness strikes my core 

like an arrow with a torch.
Burning my soul,

While I tell myself, 

not to hate you. 
I can’t carry that burden

I can’t fucking hate you.

My heart speaks the real truth.
I full heartedly fucking loved you.
The man you are now,
Looks familiar but he isn't you.
You aren't at all,
The beautiful man I once knew.

He's so long gone.

It’s so hard to recognize you. 

The past eight months 

Have been hell,

But I stayed fucking true. 

Remembering all the torment. 

That night you relapsed.

My whole entire being felt it. 

As you carelessly spent 

five hours in the bath.

You didn't care about 

Our house being remodeled.

You cancelled our plans

and your tombstone rodeo.

I would’ve left 

if I knew that’s what you wanted. 

We fought the whole weekend,

Til you finally texted.

“We’re gonna be okay baby, I love you” 

“Just checking on you”

Halloween came.
Boo fucking hoo.
I didn't know,
That you had fallen from grace.
I just thought things were moving so quickly,
That we just needed space.

We had so much to fight for.
I wish you would've 

grown the fuck up.
The entire house was silent,
You never spoke up.
I cooked family dinners.
You stayed in the garage.

I guess it never dawned on me.

You were in love with a drug. 

It’s such a selfish disease. 

The whole time you were 

Trying to set me free,

But I fucking clinged.

I couldn’t stop loving you,
You were my everything.

Even when you said and did 

hurtful things. 

I kept forgiving.

Crying.

Not knowing you were actually straying.
So much for our happy fucking Thanksgiving.

I couldn't believe it 

Until I found out the facts.

Reality hit.

So I began to fucking pack.

Leaving a home, 

we once filled with love.

We promised each other,

We wouldn't break up.

I guess, remembering the good,
Reminds me.
That my love for you,
was the evergreen tree.
Yours was the pickup truck
traveling at max speed.
My heart's the collateral damage,
of this fatality.
You are no longer conscious.
I'm the only witness to the wreck.
The damage remains
But inside you,
There's nothing left.

So, I won't delete the moments
we smiled with joy.

You know it's really over 

when every single moment flashes 

before your eyes.

Like,
Tuesday date nights.
And being your rodeo road dog
woman for life.
The note in my drawer
from the bouquet of roses,
You sent me May fourth.
It said that you loved me,
and were so blessed to have me in your life.
How you always talked about
me being your wife. 

Morgan Wallen, road trips and Zion.
That Las Vegas night life.
We sang karaoke in our taxi ride.
One Egg roll left at Curlys,
in Delta.
So we ate dinner at Mavs.
I can't even eat at Jacks.
It's so crazy to me,
That this is now all in the past.

I was crazy about you.

You were crazy about me.

Sang songs together at 

Jason Aldean's.

Your laugh.

It still corsets to me.

I haven't heard it,

Since you spent,

My last birthday with me. 

FRFR.

And fuck Yesie.

Everything about us,

Resonates in me. 

I can't even listen to Zach Bryan anymore.

Everything inside me aches,

When he plays those miraculous chords.

It stings my heartbreak.

I'm left with the thorns.

Grieving a life,

While you’re sheathed in your horns. 

Holding the sharp raging baton.

The narcotics have sorrowfully 

taken another one. 

So I will believe,

The good man inside you,

Is who set me free. 

Protecting me from the dreary reality,

That your addiction life leads. 

I will always believe.

The man that I loved,

Also loved me.

They say when you love somebody

you got to set them free.

Although driving to get lunch
on my break.
Has the habit of calling.
I remembered I couldn’t.
Eliciting real tears that never stop falling.

I can’t think about this.
Without feeling torn.
People say I should learn.

While trying to move on.
It still burns.
You were what made
my world fucking turn.

So, when I feel the pain
I let it be.
Have some fucking grace.
He ripped forever outta me.

Written by Epiphany Tiffany.