In love with a ghost

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Maybe I cared too much.
And tried too hard.
I gave you my best,
But it wasn’t enough.
Maybe I didn’t pass your stupid test.
The one where you moved me 
into your house,
Just for me to find out
you fucking relapsed.

I moved the fuck out.
I should’ve let you remain astray.
But my heart wouldn’t let me.
I should’ve ran for the hills
But I don’t quit easily.
I wish you would’ve told me
you hated me.
Because it went on and on
Never ending.

And it kept getting worse.
It felt like you just kept me around
To fucking torture.
Toying with my heart
As if it’s yours.
Who does shit like that
to some body they love?

Punishing me
for being worried and upset.
Making me apologize
for being so fucking scared to death.
I cannot believe you
made me believe 
You were unlike the rest. 
Out of all of my lovers,
You hurt me the best!

You made me believe
You loved me so fucking much.
Then ghosted me
like a spineless piece of fucking shit.
I deserve so much more than all of this.

Everything I did for you.
Was genuine.
Used up all my vacation.
Being your companion.
Filming your rodeo videos.
I worried then,
But it didn’t bother you.

Cause drugs don’t give a damn.
They made you believe
I wasn’t honest.
Told you I was the enemy.
Inside of your mind,
You blamed everything on me.
When I was only reacting.
To our beautiful love story’s
Tragical ending.

I should’ve known when
you didn’t show up on our anniversary.
I called so many times
While you never ended up answering.
I should’ve known better
The moment your kindness evaded.
You still spoke beautiful words
But never stuck to them.

You just couldn’t be there
when I needed.
Then you also went 
and fucking cheated. 
Dragging me through 
All your scandalous trenches.

Losing my fucking sanity.
As I faced brutal reality.
I couldn’t keep living 
in that black hole.
Sadly, your ghost sucked into me.
I had to let go.
Set your spirit free.
Because everything you’ve been doing
Isn’t for me.

Let go or be dragged
Finally resonated with me. 
I was in love with a ghost,
You know,
That man you used to be.



Written by Epiphany Tiffany 

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