Cruel Situations

Tears fall,
Like December rain.
I wish I didn’t have to face
Christmas,
Crying over heartbreak.
You tried to convince yourself
That you were okay.
But you could’ve fooled me,
And just fucking let me go
on Halloween.

You were my go-to
Tell me.
Who could I run to?
It wasn’t my plan
To be all alone
in our new home.
How does it feel though?
Numbing yourself,
While I feel all the pain?

While you blamed me,
for everything.
How dare you.
After all the plans
That we made.
How could you forget,
A love so loud?
Is this really who
You’re gonna be now?

God, I had no choice.
But to be strong.
You let your demons
Fucking string us along.
I can’t be dragged
I have to let go.
I love you so much
I can’t witness
this version of you.

If only you saw,
Who I see.
And what’s going on while
you mask everything.
Just keep on pretending.
While I keep on hoping.
For the day
We see the same things.

Until then,
Let go and let god.
They say,
You’ve got to love them enough
To move on.
Maybe one day,
The tears won’t ache.
Maybe then somehow, 
it will all be okay.

We don’t always know,
What's on the road
Down the paths that we take.
If we’ll find daisies.
Or step on poisonous snakes.
Sometimes we hit the jackpot,
Living life like we prayed.
Sometimes fools gold
Feels like treasure,
it’s easy to mistake.

All I can do now,
is pray to higher constellations.
They say it takes grace
To remain kind,
In life's cruel situations.
It isn’t your fault love.
For believing in it all.
With all of your heart,
Don’t carry the blame.
This was never your fault.

Written by Epiphany Tiffany