Artificial Cowboy

Mentally done
inside of your head.
Your actions defeated,
Empty words that you said.
Speaking so eloquent,
Just to tell lies.
You quit us
Then forgot to tell me.

Cause you found another lover,
That now calls the shots.
Clinging to your addiction
While I cling on to your ledge.
Hanging for dear life,
on a rope fabricated 

of your dirty laundry.

I should’ve ran then.
I am finally running now.

It took me eight months,
to finally get the fuck out.
Maybe someday you’ll see

everything you lost.
Maybe you won’t care.
Either way I’m finally free,
From this fucking nightmare.

It was my fault, 

I chose to hold on.
I knew I’d get dragged.
I still chose to love.

The hundreds of calls

And are you okay texts. 
All of that agony.
Screaming 
At all of your demons.
Praying for them 

To go the fuck away.

What happened 

to the cowboy who loved me?

It killed me to see you 

lose everything.
Add me to that list.
Chose what you chose,
Lost all the fucking light you had left.
Just to evaporate 

into the darkness.

But it wasn’t only your addiction,
That forced me to leave.
Sadly, I left because
Of the way you treated me.
I felt like I couldn’t breathe.
I believed everything
you said to me.
Like when you said we’d catch up.
Then three days passed,
And you never showed up.

I never wanted to believe
That you were playing dress up.
Real cowboys don’t fuck
A good woman up.
But true colors always arise.
like all of the countless times
You didn’t tell me goodnight.
Knowing how much it meant to me.

All I ever wanted 

were the simple things.
But you used your words to manipulate,
And make me believe,
That my feelings were wrong.
How could you do that to somebody 

you said you fucking loved.
But you would’ve tried harder
If you truly wanted us.

That’s what killed me.
The sad truth is you don’t.
You threw it all away.
Because of a drug.
You said it had nothing to do with us.

But when you're alone in your pity. 

You'll fucking miss me. 

A real cowboy
Would never lose me.

Real cowboys are all about 

fucking loyalty. 

I knew you were artificial

The second I found out 

you were also a cheat.

Just weeks before you said 

you reached for the stars 

And grabbed me.

Maybe with the next,

You’ll be able to hold on till the beep.

Maybe you’ll tell her the story about your missing teeth.

But artificial Cowboys 

don’t last eight seconds. 

So, who am I kidding?

And I'll still go to the rodeo,

Next weekend.

And find me a real Cowboy.

Who will be so happy

You are no longer my man.

You no longer get to 

ruin my future plans.

Artificial cowboy,

You are finally out of my system. 

Written by Epiphany Tiffany