Control Alt Delete

Is that where you buy 

your Marlboro reds?
Do you look at the same stop light 

I stop at everyday ahead?

I can sense you’re not far.
So please tell me why it still hurts, 
Every time your existence 
tugs at my heart.

Cause it makes me wanna 

run straight to the bar.
To drink until your presence 

drifts further afar.
Until I find myself 

at the same booth we once sat.

Remembering the time we 

ubered back to your place instead. 

I hate that every corner 

has that one place on every street. 
Is that where you take her 

when you go out to dinner and eat?
Funny how you used to 

go there with me.
But when I take my dates places,
I think of those things. 

I hate how I can’t go anywhere 

without seeing your face.
I also hate that when you left,
my heart felt so easily replaced. 
I wish you would’ve just had 

a little more grace. 

But you probably told her 

that I was just a mistake. 

Cause I know back then 
I was super persistent.
But I really wish now 

you didn’t exist in my existence. 
Or run laps around

all my what ifs. 
Funny, in my mind you’ve existed 

longer than you didn’t. 
So how else am I, 

to ever forget this?

Cause you set me free. 

Now, 

unknown calls give me PTSD.

Why am I fucking feeling these things.
If only I had the power 
To hit control alt delete.

Cause if I didn’t remember you 
my heart would be whole.
If I never remembered,

it wouldn’t be so hard to let go. 

It would be more like 

we never really happened at all.
Cause dumb ass reminders,
Preserve myself in this sorrow. 

Control Alt Delete

Written by: Epiphany Tiffany