The Past.

You’re a part of the past,
But keep coming back, 

To remind me for what.

Those days and nights

Anguished thoughts of you,

Kept me up. 

Is it because you actually,

Want to tell me goodnight.

Or to finally admit that you were,

Keeping someone else closer at night. 

While I was stressing and worrying,

You couldn’t be there for me,
Even though you said,

That you would be.

Still believing,

You gave a damn about me.

When I was yours,

But you weren’t mine.

Don’t you remember.

You had me believing I was happy, 

Living in the mist of your lies.

The first time you came,

Back from the past and into my life, 
I truly felt that our love,

Came back alive.
I believed everything you told me.

Without doubt that,

Our dreams would come true.

But the answers were always right there 

Starring at me inside of you.
Until I finally saw the real reason why. 

As much as I wanted,

I realized,

It wouldn’t be for the rest of my life.

Because of your actions.
I found the courage and strength.

That I needed to stand.

When my world was crumbling,

Out of my very own hands.

Although I tried to lean on you,

Until I could stand on my own.

Your absence helped me realize,

That it was myself I needed to hold. 

But the truth is,

I let you go,

When you couldn’t 

Love me the same way.

When I needed YOU more, 

Than anything else,

I could’ve gained.

You tore me to pieces,

With your own selfish cries.

Forcing me to believe,

There was nothing left to do,

Than say goodbye.

I still stood there like a fool.

Believing everything you said 

To be true.

Your actions never followed through.

So this is the last time,

I’m going to write anything about you.

Your voice sounds so familiar, 

As it tries to reel my heart back in.

I don’t think you understand,
I’m much better than this.

I put myself back together 

With all of the pieces,

That fell apart when you left.

That only reminds me,

That you were the reason,

For the misformed pieces,

That broke a hole,

Straight through my chest.

If I’m happy now,

Why even stress.

I know I’m somebody,

That you will always miss.

I set the bar so damn high.

I don’t think any other woman, 

Would love you like this.

But I deserve better.

Don't you remember.

You told me yourself.

Looking back,

Is a place to remember,

Never to question myself. 

Believing in something bigger,

Than me,

Is everything I am. 

Loving you that way,

Made me realize I can.

Sometimes past comes back,

To remind us,

That we’re not in control.

When our current and future,

Emerges into a black hole.

We think that the past,

Is there to bring us back,

To start over again.

To put us back on,

The path,

We were made to begin on again. 

I’ll never ask what could’ve been.

I know if it was supposed to be.
Then it would’ve been,

I’m finally happy,

And okay with myself. 

The plans ahead,

I’m finally excited,

To begin to build.

I’ll never regret.

As if it weren’t for you,
There's someone better 

That I wouldn’t have met.

She's victorious, 

Inside my soul,

But sadly hid in shadows 

Of your lies and threats.

Thanks to her,

I'll be just fine.
She was just your stepping stone,
But you fell further behind.
Leaving me,

To finally get the hell,

Out of those days. 

You're just the frustrating moments,

That I now have the choice to erase.

But I will keep you in my memory 

To forever remember,

Your true disgrace. 

I don't want to forget,

While you were important in my life.

Because of you 

I realized,

Throughout my hardest times,
Some that you even,

Instilled upon my life, heart and mind.
That I have the strength and courage, 

To make it out alright. 

So if time ever tries,

To bring you back from the past,  

I’ll remember that it never lasts, 

Run for my life,

And stop looking back. 

Written by Epiphany Tiffany.