Mind vs. Heart

Our minds are truly our biggest enemy, but also our strength, dignity and sometimes can be beyond our reasonable doubt as to what our hearts may be feeling, preventing us from actual heartbreak, because we all have feelings, but do our minds really prevent us from following through on them only because our minds are right. And are they? Are our minds actually preventing us from what we truly want and believe in? Or is what our mind is trying to tell us actually legitimate? Because lets face it, without our heart, we would never have a mind, but I can see how people can also say, without our mind, we wouldn't have a heart. So who wins this endless battle? And how do we know for sure just what leads us in life,  I guess it depends.

Do you ever find yourself questioning how you feel? Like something inside your mind is doubting what your heart feels, but you know inside your heart that no matter what your mind tells yourself, you feel the need to fight your thoughts because your heart feels so strong that it triumphs your mind? Here is an example of just that.

Your heart waits and prays and hopes that he is the one you have been waiting for your entire life, but you face doubts because he hasn't called, only proving your mind right once again, because when in doubt, your mind is always right, Not even, but your mind wont tell you that. Then your mind mocks your heart telling you he never will, that he is just another wrong one, that no matter how pretty, skinny, sexy, or curvy, have an amazing connection, cook amazing food, have pretty eyes, a good heart and soul, a nice body, perfect boobs and ass, are super successful and smart and have all the money in the world, that no matter how amazingly perfect you may think you are for him, if he doesn’t feel it, it’s not going to happen. So darling stop wasting your time on the one you think is the one “who doesn’t want a relationship" basically saying he doesn’t want YOU and go out, be single, meet someone else who could be the one that will actually tell you how beautiful and amazing you are every day, the one who could make you smile when he knows you’ve had a hard day, who won’t leave you hanging and waiting around, wondering what the hell is wrong with you, as you’re looking in the mirror seeing that beautifully sad girl wanting to love him so bad, but your giving all your love to someone who just takes it and pushes it aside, not giving you anything more than an excuse.

Wow, our minds hurt us more than he actually does right? So your heart starts feeling how powerful your mind actually is, believing you, making you feel helpless, worthless and useless. And your heart and mind start to contend one another, and the battle inside yourself begins until you become totally conflicted, unsure of how you feel, but all of a sudden, hope rings and you stick to your heart, because you believe in love, and you believe there is no real proof that what your mind is telling you is actually authentically correct. And your heart starts to ponder because you do love him so much that yes, you always do text him first and even if you get no response and your heart actually starts to believe your mind feeling how shitty it actually feels to realize that there is a possibility that he truly doesn’t want you. So yes, you do cry because he’s the only one your heart can imagine being with, the only one who makes you feel every emotion in the whole damn dictionary, even every Taylor Swift song relates to you on such a deep level, So you take a deep breath and you keep trying because your heart feels that maybe one day he’ll come around, and maybe he will see what you see. Or maybe he won’t. It’s a risk you’re willing to take because you are in love and can’t and will not give up, even if it hurts, you don’t give up on the one your heart truly loves. Your mind will try to convince you otherwise with those logical explanations as to why he doesn’t care, but your heart doesn’t want to hear it anymore because even if it is only one word, once a month, one touch, or one kiss, it’s more than nothing, and I can live with that. I can live knowing that I tried, and even if my heart does lose, I know that I NEVER gave up on it. He may or may not ever see me or love me the way I love him, but am I truly crazy to keep holding on and fighting for something that I truly love? Absolutely not.

So, no matter what type of judicious thoughts my mind tries to fill my heart with, I know that my heart is connected to my soul and that’s what carries on with me when I pass, my consciousness is only here to get me through this crazy thing called life, that in my mind is only a rationally demanding routine of hard work and dedication for things I cannot take with me when I do go, like money and pride. 

So no matter what I will always follow my heart, even if it’s not reciprocal to another’s, because in the end my mind will be diminished, But I will always have what’s in my heart, right there inside my soul.  So there it is.

We should never give up on what our hearts feel, because no matter what our minds try to tell us, our hearts lead us to our dreams, our ambitions, it’s our strength and our hope that our hearts hold inside us. Our minds only make us question, doubt, fear, and worry, so don't become bitter because you follow your mind. Open your heart and you will find something unbelievable inside your mind, even if it turns out to be right and your heart does break, at least you took a chance, took a risk, and lived. And that right there amongst it all, is totally worth it, because someone smart once told me, in the end the only thing that ever mattered in his entire life, was love.  And that’s worth it to me.