That Forever Kinda Love Addiction- Poem.

"Love is your addiction to an eternal longing for someone, but a thirst which one cannot quench." -Unknown

You ask me if I can love you forever.
But yet I don't quite know the answer.
And that is okay.
Not knowing doesn't mean that I don't love you that kind of way.
Because forever isn't given.
It's something hard work earns.
And months together won't grant us what we believe we both deserve.

Take it from me.

I've learned that along time ago.
When he and I both made a promise with that hopeless F word.
But people change and hearts grow apart.
Life makes love tough.
Especially when someone doesn't quite love the other one enough.
Or even worse, treats it like an addiction. 
Not being able to find any satisfaction with what the other one gives.
Cause if two lovers aren't on the same page. 
Well, I'd hate to be the one to say that I told you that it would end up this way. 
But I do understand when you say that you love me a lot.
I can see the way that you look at me with eyes like a kid in a candy shop.
But when we're not together you get all kinds of pissed off.
And I need someone to love me the same way even when we are not.

It makes me feel like your love for me is just an addiction.
Cause you always get mad at me when were apart cause i'm not feeding into it.
And this isn't a game of life where we get to place blame.
This is my life, and I've been through enough hell to allow anyone to treat me that way again.

Like picking fights when you could just be happy.
Cause you know damn well that you already have the woman of your dreams.
But what's sad is you're starting to ruin it.
Just because you can't get every little thing that you want, 

You try to sabotage it.
But love isn't something to tamper with.
Not like cigarettes or alcohol when you run out you can buy more of it.
Yes, my love you might have the luxury to get to inhale and exhale.
But my heart, well you sure as hell don't get to buy nor sale.

Because my heart is not in your power or control,
And not even forever can guarantee that it will even stay where you want it to go. 

So I wish you would just let me love you my way.
Without addictions or any hurtful heartbreaks. 
Just real love no stupid games.
Cause I want us both to be happy,
And more importantly, I want the man that you showed me that you can be.

But if a healthy relationship is to hard for you to have,
I just can't be with someone who has that forever kinda love addiction like that.
Because not being with you 24/7.
Does not mean that I don't love you one bit.
It just means that I have a life.

One that doesn't always revolve around you.
And just because I love you too.
Doesn't mean that I have that forever kinda love addiction for you. 

Written by: Tiffany Bales