Epiphany Tiffany

My heart feels brand new. Got me already saying, I love you. But its so fucking true. Damn baby, I’m literally fallin Head over horse for you. Every past love I thought I knew. Has no comparison. At all, to you. I’m no longer drinking, To heal a heart that was Beaten and bruised. I’m just thinking, That I’m the luckiest girl in the world. Because now I have you. Not only because you look so damn good in boots. And have green eyes that mine get lost into. Your such a daydream With sexy tattoos. God damn, You look amazing in dodger hats too. Babe, I’ll always choose you. It’s okay to be happy After all the hell We’ve conquered through. Funny how both of our journeys Lead us, Right where we’re meant to. Now, I can never imagine, Not knowin you. Or sipping Pacificos With you in my pool. I love cooking and taking care of you. I can already see us snuggled up On your couch Watching our Dallas Cowboys Probably lose. Babe, I’ll keep speaking truth. I’m always winning Beside you. Brave and hand...

I miss you. And who I was When I was with you. But every turn, Distanced me Further from you. Now it’s too late To tell you the truth. Because it was me, You didn’t choose. Life still consumes.  A smile on my face Hides a heart, Beaten and bruised. Wanting to feel, But terrified whenever I do. So I hide in a safe place to forget about you. I still never do.  I guess, Falling in love My heart  just can’t undo. It kills me inside knowing all that I do. How life knocks me down. And I can’t run to you.  But it’s too late, To tell you the truth.  Because it was me You didn’t choose.  So I keep moving forward,  Doing my best to stay true. To that amazing strong woman. That let fucking go of you. Written by: Epiphany Tiffany

Happy Valentine’s Day. I wonder if you ever  kept that keychain.. The one I bought you that said, “Drive safe.” Damn, It’s crazy to think. You only live inside my head these days. Rewind time. Sipping beers at a hidden lake. I remember you said. Never ever change a thing. So why’d you leave? If you whispered  That you love me. Or waste my time sending texts. Like, please d on’t hate me. Cause I look back And remember everything. I loved you. Even if it made my heart fucken sink. Funny how, Time hasn’t really changed a thing. Probably cause My hearts loved you Since it was a fucking teen. Fast forward we’re together in 2018. A picture tells me everything. Maroon dress, Wearin nothing else  but bright white smiling teeth. That night, You held me til I fell asleep. So why’d you leave? If you whispered such amazing things. Or waste my time sending texts I don’t let my future self delete. Cause I look back and remember  Everything. Everywhere I go, Your love is fucking h...

Emerald stare, Completely unaware. Lying to my face  while you pretended to care.   Mouthing words, that lacked expression.  I already know, I’m a fucking amazing person.    Validating me, As if I’m your only woman. The only thing I needed From you, Was to feel fucking safe Not reprimanded.    You say,  We don’t  talk about your feelings. “ they aren’t important” But love was not designed To be a perfect portrait.     I still saw  beyond the idea of it. Loved you, Even when you couldn’t see it.  Truth, Was the only thing from you I ever needed.   I really thought I knew you. Until you fucking ghosted. Just weeks after you  said, I,  was your fucking  favorite person .    Then cancelled from your life Like I never existed. That kinda shit can fuck up, An entire fucking nervous system.   When we were casually dating, That was one thing. But when you asked me to be   “your girl” I took ...

How do I get past I miss you, If my memory only reminds me  of moments, I was disarmingly in love with you. I wish my mind would  fucking forget you. Cause I’ve already tried  Every possible way to. Forget the occasions I fucking fell for you. I wasn’t even mad  When you told your mom that I loved you. Cause she hugged me and told me  That I was the best fucking thing for you. I may never know if your feelings for me, were genuinely true. I won’t beg or plead, To get real fucking feelings out of you.   You might’ve lied, But you can’t fake real love, That shit is see-through.  Funny how after all this time,  I wish the best for the both of you. I’m not bitter. I’m working through shit, My minds got to attend to. Praying that someday, Your lease on my heart  won’t automatically renew. Surely,  I have a disastrous point a view. With anything and everything that fucking involves you. But I got a really good feeling, A new love I’ll luck int...

Loaded pistols stare right at me. The only thing flashing through my mind, Is your memory. Mr. only one who could disarm my heart, And keep it from feeling fucked up things. To lacking all kinds of decency, When you left. Still fucks me up, A lot more than you’d think. People ask,  Why can’t you just get over it, Because it was fucking real to me! Armed guards now battle off  dudes that think, They’d stand a real chance with me. Maybe I am more fucked up, Than whatever lie they try to convince me to believe. Cause I hate everything since you that’s happened to me. I even hate that I can’t tell you  any of these things. After everything, You were the hardest thing. Maybe that’s why I still hold on  To a pain that’s deep. Maybe what I’m truly afraid of  Is peace. Cause look at what happened, The last time I smiled with ease.  Why envision a life with somebody, If they’re just going to leave? The last person I trusted, Made me feel like a queen, Fucking deceiv...

Lights glisten white and blue just like  Frozen. Let it go plays in the background. but it’s not sinking in. Cause those turquoise eyes, Still haunt my mind. Making this ice-cold heart sink, When I thought it was fine. Sadly,  December always remembers Sad tragic times. Masking my heart  with gleaming beautiful, sapphire lies. Like the color of your shirt, When you hugged me goodbye. Or the chill of that aqua gaze,  That cut my soul like a knife.  Sometimes rain, still pours out of my eyes. Like the time  I was drowning myself, in my very own cries. But that’s what made  the morning glory’s bloom. I finally stopped crying  inside of my room. You moved on, So I did too. Until I see anything, That reminds me of you.  Taking me back to spring flowers in May. That died way too fucking soon.   Marvelous nights, And a real fucking star for you. Of all of the galaxies, you were my fullest moon. How do I forget, A person who fully consumed....

I used to believe in fake love. You know, that fairy tale version where my first love sweeps me off my feet and never leaves kinda one. I was practically on the edge of a cliff balancing my entire life, so I could cook him dinner every night. Because I just wanted to make him happy. That’s what made me happy. Still, I cried myself to sleep nightly, just to get rewarded to sleep next to him. Little did I know that sweep me off my feet kinda love actually did knock me off my feet. Not in the good way.  Now I believe in peace. I don’t fret over what’s not meant to be. I used to hold on so tight to everything I touched because I was so damn afraid to lose it. Now I need insurance for every thing I touch because I can’t quite seem to keep track of where it is. Maybe I’m just getting old. Or on to something here. Turns out, losing isn’t a bad thing. Losing is humbling. It’s humanitary. Losing actually taught me to be a better person. That winning and losing actually go hand in hand in lo...

I used to be so persistent. I cared about so much shit. But the older I get,  The more I forget.  So sometimes when I need to feel,  I pour a glass of Liquid assistance.  Then I’m swimming around the past,  Like a God damn queen. Sipping on ruby drinks. Crying over, Those nights I prayed for peace.   Wishing you were here with me. Flashing thoughts, Like paparazzi. Why won’t my memory  Forget everything? Cause honestly, You already lost conscious of me.  While my entire heart is a puppet,  Your carrying its strings. Searching everywhere for scissors,  But they are no where  in this dream. Nightmares that now taunt  my self-esteem. Babes come back to me.  No one knows the pain I’ve beared. When real shit went down.  You were there. Until I went through fucking hell, And you weren’t there. You weren’t there. You weren’t there. You weren’t there. Now if I only had a match to burn thoughts down. You’d be headed out of tow...

I was ready   to give myself to you. Took the steps   To falling in love with you too. I envisioned  the same damn things as you. So please don’t think  That my love for you  was never really true. I pictured everything  we said we’d do. I pictured an entire lifetime  with you. I loved the way  my family loved you. And how you loved me  more than anyone ever loved me too. I wanted to protect you.  And be a better person  just for you. You’re an amazing person  to your core. I said it cause it’s true. I was so lucky Just to be with you.  But I hate  what fucking happened to you. Said I’d be there I even meant that shit too. It wasn’t my fault  What that jerk did to you. After that shit, You probably would’ve left me too.  I didn’t think  giving us a shot. Would lead to  ex lovers taunting us.  Or that they’d  destroy every one  of our  solid paved footsteps.  Aiming for us. ...