Unstoppably Living

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Watching the World Series,
Happily by myself.
Sipping a beer.
Wearing your sweatshirt.
Looking up.
I remember,
The days you were still here.

I could see our,

Shadows on the walls.

But that doesn’t stop me from 

Smiling.

Or laughing at my own jokes.

Or spending time with those 

Who do love me.

You might’ve fumbled,

But baby baby look at me.

Unstoppably, living. 


When you shut me out. 

I tried my best to stick around.

Picking up broken pieces,

Crying myself to bed.

You didn’t care.

You said you’d always be there. 

Empty promises.

Made me show up for myself.

I never needed you.

I got myself. 


You weren’t where

I was supposed to stop.

I kept riding through your hell,

But I got off.

Forced to take a different route.

Kinda sad.

Kinda hurt.

Kinda made me want to run right back…

But I didn’t …


I kept going.

I found myself in Spain.

A little lost,

A little found.

But I was no longer, 

The founder of your pain.

Yea, you made me feel that way.. 

Covet narcissist.

You’d always say.

Sometimes people tell you who they are, with blame.


A little sad.

A little mad.

Still a little bit pissed off.

Made me face that shit.

Til’ I realized it wasn’t 

Me who took that loss.

Cause I’m still smiling.

Even if my hearts,

Still dusting off the frost. 


Sometimes I cry,

And that’s okay.

What we believe is real,

While giving up

Is such a shame. 

Still beautiful.

After everything.


I’m still me. 

I’m still happy.

A little stronger than I was,

Before you met me.

Thank god he set me free.

A fucking better Tiffany. 

Unstoppably living. 




Written by Epiphany Tiffany. 


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