Enough

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When is enough
enough?
I ask myself daily.
How much do I take,
Before I lose my fuckin sanity.

When loving you blindly,
Didn’t take long to sink deep 
in to reality.
I can’t drown.
I’ve got to throw the life ring
And get the fuck out.

But my heart
Won’t let you fucking be.
Deep down,
It's cause I know you
Really do fucking love me.
Clearly, it doesn’t matter
how much you love anything.

Words are from the lips.
Actions come from the heart.
When will enough be enough,
For me to take the steps 
towards a new start?

Cause it’s fucking 
breaking my heart.
Waiting for updates
Tears me apart.
Every minute,
Time passes 
Not hearing a word.
Makes me think
Terrible things
Have happened to you.

How am I supposed
To pretend,
I don’t know the truth.
How am I supposed
to just fucking be with you?
Cause it will always
hurt me more,
Than it ever hurts you.
God tell me,
What the fuck
I’m supposed to do.

I don’t like this version of you.
But I can’t fucking deny
The love I have 
inside my heart for you.
Love clearly isn’t enough
to get fucking through to you.
Tell me,
What does enough look like
For you?

Cause enough wasn’t enough
When I had to fucking leave.
Or when you said all kinds of 
Pretty hurtful things.
Prioritizing our love
Over trust and respect
Turned a beautiful love, 
Toxic.

I tried like hell
To fucking save it. 
I loved you so much.
But nothing I say or do
Can save an addict.
But enough was enough,
When I found out you cheated.


Written by Epiphany Tiffany.

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