Epiphany Tiffany

Emerald stare, Completely unaware. Lying to my face  while you pretended to care.   Mouthing words, that lacked expression.  I already know, I’m a fucking amazing person.    Validating me, As if I’m your only woman. The only thing I needed From you, Was to feel fucking safe Not reprimanded.    You say,  We don’t  talk about your feelings. “ they aren’t important” But love was not designed To be a perfect portrait.     I still saw  beyond the idea of it. Loved you, Even when you couldn’t see it.  Truth, Was the only thing from you I ever needed.   I really thought I knew you. Until you fucking ghosted. Just weeks after you  said, I,  was your fucking  favorite person .    Then cancelled from your life Like I never existed. That kinda shit can fuck up, An entire fucking nervous system.   When we were casually dating, That was one thing. But when you asked me to be   “your girl” I took ...

How do I get past I miss you, If my memory only reminds me  of moments, I was disarmingly in love with you. I wish my mind would  fucking forget you. Cause I’ve already tried  Every possible way to. Forget the occasions I fucking fell for you. I wasn’t even mad  When you told your mom that I loved you. Cause she hugged me and told me  That I was the best fucking thing for you. I may never know if your feelings for me, were genuinely true. I won’t beg or plead, To get real fucking feelings out of you.   You might’ve lied, But you can’t fake real love, That shit is see-through.  Funny how after all this time,  I wish the best for the both of you. I’m not bitter. I’m working through shit, My minds got to attend to. Praying that someday, Your lease on my heart  won’t automatically renew. Surely,  I have a disastrous point a view. With anything and everything that fucking involves you. But I got a really good feeling, A new love I’ll luck int...

Loaded pistols stare right at me. The only thing flashing through my mind, Is your memory. Mr. only one who could disarm my heart, And keep it from feeling fucked up things. To lacking all kinds of decency, When you left. Still fucks me up, A lot more than you’d think. People ask,  Why can’t you just get over it, Because it was fucking real to me! Armed guards now battle off  dudes that think, They’d stand a real chance with me. Maybe I am more fucked up, Than whatever lie they try to convince me to believe. Cause I hate everything since you that’s happened to me. I even hate that I can’t tell you  any of these things. After everything, You were the hardest thing. Maybe that’s why I still hold on  To a pain that’s deep. Maybe what I’m truly afraid of  Is peace. Cause look at what happened, The last time I smiled with ease.  Why envision a life with somebody, If they’re just going to leave? The last person I trusted, Made me feel like a queen, Fucking deceiv...