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Expectations of Failure.

Ever feel like you have expectations but in a negative connotation? Like the survivor inside expects hurt, trials, and pain just because that’s all you know? That’s just comfort. “comforhurt” is how I would say it. Because a survivors telescope only focuses in on the deceptors that are striving to take aim at our vigorous hearts. We know that we can capture them. It’s easy for us, because we are already expecting them to fail us. So, we reel em onto our paths and allow them to conquer their quests simply because it’s comforting. As if survivors don’t have time to expect positive qualities like normal unhurt people do. But the issue is… WE ARE ALL BROKEN. Hurt people hurt people. But I saw a reel that said, heal people heal people, and it dawned on me that we’re all a little bit of both hurt and healed. To be healed, well we gotta get through the hurt hurtles first, cause technically ya can’t be healed without hurt.. But maybe survivors posted themselves on the forbidden island of doom...

Harbored Hurt.

It’s easier to dismiss our pain by pretending it doesn’t exist. I mean, we all do it. But the issue with this temporary fix is, by dismissing our pain we aren’t actually dismissing our pain. What we are actually doing is placing our pain down to the very bottom of our emotional priority list because we don’t want to make any effort to deal with it. We end up harboring it down to the very bottom layer of our emotional scale until the next time we face any type of hurt. Doing it over again, creating a pattern of more layers of hurt. AKA harboring our hurts, until we have these layers of unresolved damage all because we simply did not want to face them. Until one day trauma strikes us, and we are dead end into an emotional rock bottom. Left stranded with all of our rotten onion layers of hurt staring at us with nowhere to run. You see when we get hurt, we put a band-aid over it, keep calm and carry on. Repeating this for decades until we are adults realizing we have deep rooted layers of ...